Silent barrier.

Isolation

What you say affects me,
How you react affects me too.
Seem so distant,
so different from before
Why do things change,
when you never want them to.
How did the situation become like this?
This is a problem to me.
A solution i seek desperately.
To break this barrier,
I call it the silent barrier.

It was never like this,
with ease i speak.
Uncertainty beholds me now,
with caution each step i make.
Where has the familiarity gone?
Why is there a barrier now?
The silent barrier, can it be broken?

We used to laugh, say jokes,
crappy as they may be
Things have changed now,
I really dont like it.
Things beyond my control,
I wish i know how to avert the situation
Improve it, make things better.
Ignorant me,
I lack the knowledge
Lack the power
Lack the charm.

I feel quite useless,
Escaping this uncertain world
The barrier still exists
What should I do?
I alone do not have the power.
I think i need some assistance,
some divine intervention.

A miracle maybe?
Some things in life,
When you reach a dead end,
and when all is lost,
You see the sun shining.
I am awaiting that moment
Lord helps those who help themselves
What should I do in my case?

Irregardless of the outcome,
I am trying.
So many things to do,
its almost burying me.
Is it over commitment?
I really do not know.
My heart yearns to do more
Much more than I can manage.
Where is my listening ear?
The silent barrier,
remains a problem,
Solution unknown to me.